I thought before I lay down to take a nap and get some rest I would get the emotions out..a cleansing of sorts. Yesterday I was in great spirits and today not so much, its funny how each day is so different from the next. I have had a lot of visitors through this chemo which has been great and has kept me going strong. Then there are the moments that nothing can keep me together like now..I tried so hard to get through all my visitors this morning without crying but the gates opened on poor Amanda..(sorry) Since she left about 2 hours ago I have not stopped. I have cried through my lunch, talking to my mother, talking to my nurse and even the chaplain.
I'm guessing I hold everything in too much and I know you have all told me to just let it out and that you will all be here for me to cry with but that's not what I want. I don't want to cry with my friends due to cancer, I want to cry with my friends due to laughter. I don't want to have people feel bad or feel the pain I feel I want them to only take the good of me with them not the bed. I have always been the one to add the fun to the party and make light of the situation. So I am just going to ask you all tonight as you all go to bed whether you are religious or not please pray for me i feel like I need a lift and if everyone is all doing it at around the same time it will be even stronger for me..
Thank you
xoxo
D
Danielle,
ReplyDeleteI want you to know that I have been praying for you since the day I found out! I know we haven't seen each other in a while, but I have definitely shed some tears as well. I'm just in disbelief. But you are such a strong and beautiful woman I know you will get through this!
I love you and it's totally fine that you cried with me today...I think we both needed it. I cried part of the car ride home too. I'm here whether you want to laugh or cry. Thinking of you always.
ReplyDeleteI ran into Kevin this weekend and we were talking about how I came to meet you through him and so happy I did. I have been praying for you every night I pray since I found out, my mom has been too. She asks me how you're doing and sends her prayers. You will get through this I know you will because you're so strong, one of the strongest people I've met.
ReplyDeleteDanielle,
ReplyDeleteYou amaze me as you always have. You continue to be in my prayers and especially tonight. Cleansing is always important and tomorrow is always a new day. Always in my thoughts.
Danielle, I am a friend of your Mom way back in Junior High. I've read your blog and I love how open and honest you are thru it all. You certainly take after your Mom in so many ways (everyone loves her too). I have not walked in your shoes and I'm quite sure my saying "keep on fighting" is easier said than done but I have a very strong feeling you can do it. One can only hope to go thru a time like this this as courageously as you are. For that I commend you! As far as the crying goes, go for it girl! You have earned it as much as you have earned that beautiful bald head (which by the way you pull off beautifully!). I say prayers for you often as do so many more of your Moms friends that you haven't met.....YET! I look forward to the day when you are set free from fighting this war and meeting such a courageous, beautiful, loving woman you have become. God Bless you and your family. <3
ReplyDeleteDanielle, I have never met you except through Facebook. From the comments that those who know you, you are a special young lady. I certainly will have you in my prayers. With prayers you will come through this, I just know you will. Try to keep your spirits up and laugh as much as possible, you know laughter is one of the best things you can do for yourself, others and your health. God will be right by your side sweetie.
ReplyDeleteWishing the best for your next
ReplyDeleteround of treatments! You look
great! Keep up the fight, I am
one of your warriors and fighting
along side with you. Faith and Hope!
Gob bless.
Joanne A.